Thursday, March 31, 2011
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
I have been challenged recently to get from behind the camera to in front of the camera. Throughout the years, I have been the one who takes the pictures. (I have control issues) I want my boys to have pictures with their mommy even if I have to force them, like this little turkey. (He is so much fun and a constant joy) What has been the hardest for me is to accept how I look now. Having four babies has done a number on my body and well, I am not too comfortable with what I look like. I hope to change that, but it looks like for now, I need to accept who I am and move on. I will make a valiant effort to make Wednesdays my "Embrace the Camera" day.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Monday, March 28, 2011
Friday, March 25, 2011
So here is today's.
He must increase, but I must decrease —John 3:30
If you become a necessity to someone else’s life, you are out of God’s will. As a servant, your primary responsibility is to be a “friend of the bridegroom” (John 3:29). When you see a person who is close to grasping the claims of Jesus Christ, you know that your influence has been used in the right direction. And when you begin to see that person in the middle of a difficult and painful struggle, don’t try to prevent it, but pray that his difficulty will grow even ten times stronger, until no power on earth or in hell could hold him away from Jesus Christ. Over and over again, we try to be amateur providences in someone’s life. We are indeed amateurs, coming in and actually preventing God’s will and saying, “This person should not have to experience this difficulty.” Instead of being friends of the Bridegroom, our sympathy gets in the way. One day that person will say to us, “You are a thief; you stole my desire to follow Jesus, and because of you I lost sight of Him.”
Beware of rejoicing with someone over the wrong thing, but always look to rejoice over the right thing. “. . . the friend of the bridegroom . . . rejoices greatly because of the bridegroom’s voice. Therefore this joy of mine is fulfilled. He must increase, but I must decrease” (John 3:29-30). This was spoken with joy, not with sadness-at last they were to see the Bridegroom! And John said this was his joy. It represents a stepping aside, an absolute removal of the servant, never to be thought of again.
Listen intently with your entire being until you hear the Bridegroom’s voice in the life of another person. And never give any thought to what devastation, difficulties, or sickness it will bring. Just rejoice with godly excitement that His voice has been heard. You may often have to watch Jesus Christ wreck a life before He saves it (see Matthew 10:34).
So you see I have a problem. My problem is I am a fixer....I want to fix things and be the solution to the problem. I am learning (present tense) that I cannot fix....I can only give it to God. I cannot be some one's Savior.....only Jesus can. I love to help and problem solve, but there are some problems that aren't mine to solve and some that I can't solve.
This has been keeping me up at night lately. I told the Mr. that on the outside and even about an inch deep. I am peaceful and know God is going to pull through, but my core (the inside) is a nervous wreck...I can feel it and as much as I am trying to make it calm, I can't. So lately I have been asking for the peace that passes all understanding to guard my heart and mind.
Philippians 4:6-7 (the NLT version is a great reading)
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Here is a moment where they where all were enjoying the fort and watching a movie or something at the same time. A rare moment of stillness and peace.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
I really shouldn't care about what others do or what mine looks like. It is about what God is showing and teaching me through my family and really the rest of my life and reflecting that through my blog? So I have made a promise to be more real with myself and start posting what is going on on the inside and not just the outside. You may be shocked to find that it isn't pretty. I am broken just like the rest of humanity (praise God for his grace, Amen?). I will also post about the army of men my husband and I are trying to raise to be men who love Jesus whole heartedly.
So there I am....exposed and fearful, but I need to be and do what is scary. Here's a pic of #4 seeing how it wouldn't be a real post without a picture.
Monday, March 21, 2011
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Can I be honest and say that life it a little overwhelming lately? It isn't even because I am so busy...that was my before life. I have taken great strides to cut out what I don't need to do. I found myself doing things just because I felt guilty if I didn't. You see, I am one of the types that thinks I have to "do" in order to make God be OK with me. This past summer and fall, God taught that 1. I can never "do" enough and 2. He's good with me just as I am. Wow!!!! How freeing!!! It was such a huge message for me to accept and take in. I still fight that old self that says "you should be doing more at the church" or "you should be in prayer/bible study more" It was one of the first times in my life that I felt like I could breathe and be free.
The old self though rears its ugly head every now and then. Four kids, house, and work are enough to keep me busy. We just have had a few extra stresses lately and well, I am not handling it well. I can tell because I want to have a Dr. Pepper all the time. That may seem crazy, but it is my addiction. When life gets stressful have a DP and then it seems manageable. Whoa!!! Hold the phone. DP shouldn't be what I turn to. Jesus should. So I have been trying to cut back and cut it out of my life. Yet, here I am with my crazy life. (not too crazy, but crazy circumstances) I feel like God is big enough to take care of it, but somehow my mind and heart haven't come together on this.
Pray that I will depend on God instead of my DP or any other "thing". I want to love him with my whole person and not part.
Saturday, March 19, 2011
What is worship? Well, it is giving our attention and adoration to someone or something. We all worship. Sometimes it is our jobs, kids, house, or spouse. Sometimes, I think I worship worship.
Needless to say God is showing me that when I turn my eyes on him and sit at his feet, life gets put into perspective. I feel all the weight leave my shoulders as I pass that to him and I get to rest in his peace and freedom.
So I want to leave you with our sermon from the last week. It was amazing. I was so glad that I got to be a part.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Monday, March 7, 2011
"What are all the boys staring at?"